#i prepared i was a Good Student
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the One year i keep (and stick to!!) a meticulous plan, get all my readings done and shit passed in on time; the one single semester i am fully actually on track, the profs strike and the whole schedule grinds to a halt
i think this is the universe telling me it's better to. not plan :)
#this is a joke im wholly nonfunctional without some level of calendar/agenda/etc#but ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.#its all laid out... planned... i had one and two week warnings for tests and everything :( all my readings marked in on their due dates#i prepared i was a Good Student#i got such a pretty planner. i COLOUR CODED#levi.txt#anyway. the admin fucking deserves this i hope the profs fuck up their whole shit#its about wages for non tenure profs (mostly) amongst many other issues that the student body wasnt aware of#but may i also remind you. our campus actively has an asbestos problem in the year 2023#and w the recent news... i wont get into it so as not to dox myself but jesus fuck. they are Not budgeting responsibly (which we knew)#im in actual disbelief they wasted literally over 100k. lmfao#they dont give a shit about the profs they dont give a shit about us
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my favorite type of students to teach are teenage boys who are very, very quiet, very smart in a math-science way, and have no sisters.
#a combination uniquely suited to be taught by me lol#and yes I have to be careful with boundaries etc. re: my last post on teaching teenage boys#but they really are very precious to me#I would say (in my moments of honest ego) that it’s the feminine charm that draws them in#but actually it’s not. they’re low-key scared of the feminine charm#it’s the Actual Works and my Knowledge of them!!!#anyway many such dangers attending this position etc.#but one of the things that’s sweet to me is that it’s not nearly as infrequent as I thought it would be#I had one student like this two years ago and thought it was a once in a million kind of thing and it’s not#and it’s healing that it’s not#teaching tag#anyway I am preparing good husbands for many women is what I’m doing
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if my alma mater doesn't hire me for an in-house design position that looks bad on them right........ right,,,
#u shouldve prepared me for this if u say im not good enough for it that means u did a bad job :||||#half joking but also like dang i need... money pls i can design around ur silly two dot.... logo.....#also love to take the money from them and shovel it right back into repaying student loans used to pay them ha... ha ha. ha
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55-75 dollars an hour for being a therapist? And all this time I’ve been giving services to adults for free since I was 10.
#I have a feeling that if I went into therapy it would be ridiculously easy for me#(maybe not the emotional side; but the creative interpersonal part)#Hell I could probably be someone’s therapist right now without going to college (not that I’m the healthiest person SJDNDJ)#but do as I say not as I do#But I am SO good at coming up with solutions and talking to people in an authoritative but non-threatening way#I can bond with anyone if you give me enough time to work my magic#and once that happens I develop superhuman levels of being attuned to them#I notice microscopic details in situations… I can just pick up people’s vibes#I’m almost what could be called an “empath” but I’m not because all I do is analyze and interpret data all day long#It’s an obsession and I like doing it#And as a result I have needlepoint precision in how I execute plans and interact with others in a work setting#but oddly enough not in day-to-day life… in day-to-day life I do whatever the hell I want#and usually whatever the hell I want constitutes staying fifty feet away from everyone#What kind of hell do I live in that I am a people person but simultaneously introverted to the point of being asocial?#I guess I like being around people if I’m paid to do it? Because it’s in a controlled setting and I know I can go home at a set time#I am prepared to interact with people at work; if I am not prepared I can do fuck all with people socially#A lady tried to talk to me about where I worked while I was in line at the bakery#She was like “Your tag… you work at [school]?”#And I was like “No I work at [other school]… Autistic students.” Then promptly moved to the back of the line#If I am there to eat; I am there to eat. I am not there to talk. No offense. My brain just isn’t calibrated for speaking at this time
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so i'm writing an 8th year fic and h&d are taking a muggle studies class together in which they read one of shakespeare's plays, and i'm trying to write a final project (for which they are partners) but like. hogwarts academics don't seem all that uhhhhh rigorous to me (like we see the students complaining about having to write a foot of parchment which is essentially ONE PAGE HANDWRITTEN) and i'm a little worried that my assignment is too rigorous.
it involves a lot of like. thinking analytically and using your imagination wrt the motivations of people unlike yourself, and that's not rlly something they do much at hogwarts as far as i can see. BUT it is muggle studies, and like. they could definitely all use some practice at those skills, following the recent implosion of their society.
#i showed it to my spouse who is a hs teacher#'where are they getting the books for this research? are there wizarding books about macbeth?' no there are not#the professor chose macbeth bc it has these concepts that will be familiar to them like witchcraft and prophesy#but presented from a muggle perspective#and also bc shakespeare is foundational to english literature and culture and it's good to be familiar with his work#and also bc they don't have a lot of experience with art esp language arts which is so so so sad and this will broaden their world#and ALSO bc shakespeare wrote before the statute of secrecy was signed which hopefully sparks their imaginations#to what extent might shakespeare's work have been impacted by ambient magic? or rumors of magic?#and if they had like a regular english literature education#they could talk about like the role of outcasts in shakespeare's work and whether magical people fit into that role#but they do not so we have to be a bit more literal#for the students that are prepared to like dig into this stuff it could be a very engaging experience#but most of them will prob be a bit lazy with it right? and maybe just resent the assignment and not get much out of it#and like!!!!#this assignment is literally just an excuse to have H&D putting their heads together in the library#and bring their relationship/the fact that they've been warming up to each other and spending time together out into the open#in a plausible deniability sort of way#a friendship soft launch if you will#i get a little carried away about these details sometimes#like if i mention the characters getting sandwiches i will look up menus for places they could plausibly have gotten sandwiches in that are#to make sure the sandwiches i mention are reasonable sandwiches#i heard some dumb story about meghan markle freaking out about not being able to get avocado when she was in the uk#and i remembered a fic i had written where aziraphale and crowley eat egg and avocado sandwiches#and i felt ashamed#an implausible sandwich!!!!
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🌿23rd November, 2023🌿
It's officially exam season. So, I'm trying to focus and cover as many topics as possible with full understanding. It seems like the past two months just flew by too fast. Lots of new experiences and I'm sure there are more to come.
my instagram page : brownie_lattes
#brownie-lattes#stem#stem academia#stem student#women in stem#microbiology#study blog#studyblr#study motivation#studying#studyspo#this is my first proper studyblr post here aaaaaaaaaaadhoah#i hope i can appear for all of my exams well prepared#good luck to everyone appearing for exams#i'm looking forward to update more :D#starlighttracks
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hate this fucking college why are you taking every step possible to make it harder for us to be good practitioners this is insane
#like WHY do we have to jump through 15 thousand flaming fucking hoops to get access to basic resources#that almost every other medical school readily provide for their students i don't get it do you want us to be good at our jobs or not#and they're always so obscure and never transparent with their assessments it's so awful and does nothing but stunt our learning#because instead of focusing on effectively understanding basic medical sciences and retaining clinical skills instead i have to put my time#and energy into figuring out how the fuck im supposed to prepare for you dumbass nonsensical assessments that you never let us review#so that i can pass salvage what's left of my gpa get the fuck out of here omg pisses me off so much
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My first time watching Glass Onion it was obvious that Miles' speeches were bullshit, but I still searched for any hidden meaning there might be.
The second time is a different experience though because every time my brain starts to search for meaning, I feel like Benoit Blanc discovering that no, there is absolutely no hidden meaning.
It's bullshit it's all nothing nothing nothing! It is just how you end up talking when everyone reacts to your self-aggrandizing word vomit like it is actually wisdom.
Also, legit, when Miles gave his stupid bullshit speech about what the word 'disruptor' means to him, I shit you not I was like holy shit am I back in business school right now?!
Miles must have given speeches like that at 100 business school graduations, goddamn.
Like, the motherfuckers really do sound like this. We didn't have any billionaires come, but we had a lot of millionaire guest speakers in my classes, and they fucking talk like that.
They all think they're rugged capitalists, but they're just glass onions!
#original#glass onion#it's just. business school prepared me really well to succeed in the business world as a straight white neurotypical#able-bodied cis man with a large network of very wealthy friends and family#I really would have killed it if I wasn't a queer autistic cripple!#even the best teachers seemed incredibly unaware of the enormous privilege that they were assuming in their students when they taught#but they basically presupposed you had infinite energy and savings and a disturbingly large number of my classes were just#lectures about pushing as hard as you can no matter what#they used Starbucks as an example of an admirable case of somebody who persisted in going to 150 investor pitches before being approved#and like. how many people do you know who have enough savings to schedule plan and attend 150 investor pitches?#how many people do you know who could set up even 12 through their connections?#where are those savings coming from? where are those investor pitch meetings coming from? those aren't easy to get!!#but none of this was ever mentioned it was just awesome that the guy kept trying I guess.#I have a sneaking suspicion that if I were to have dug deeper into some of the examples we were given that a lot of those#real life businesses probably started with a big big loan from somebody's parents#I was listening to the show you're wrong about which is a really good podcast and Michael Hobbs was like#anytime you see an article glorifying someone's financial success especially at a young age you should control F for 'parents'#because chances are you will probably see the word 'parents' somewhere next to the words 'million dollar loan'#anyway college is a scam. the community aspect was incredibly cool but I don't see why we as a culture need to only be able to access that#kind of community when we are paying a scam Institution a shitload of money for Educations that aren't helpful for the majority of us#if College was free then people could actually study things that are useful or fun for them#I took most of my courses just to fill out my major too. the point wasn't to learn it was to graduate.#and then it turned out that if you're disabled in the way i am it doesn't matter if you have a college degree!#but I'm sure miles would say I just need to pull myself up by my bootstraps. and that's why I'm glad his life got exploded 😌#andi kept him around for his money - why else would he be there when no one even liked him??#he was the bankroll#one time I swear to god we just had the guy from American Psycho just a real ass Patrick Bateman#it was wild watching that movie later and being like ???? I know this guy!#outside of the actual murder scenes everything in that movie is not exaggerated in the slightest those bitches really are like that#like my parents are not 1% level rich so there'd be no giant loans but they are rich. it'd be stupid to act like i didn't benefit from that
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God, this is fucking crazy
So i only have 3 more classes to take, but it'll cost the same to take 3 classes as 4 classes. So I've been thinking about taking a 4th class just for the hell of it. Something fun and/or easy.
Out of curiosity, I looked up orchestras. I was in it in my first year, but I haven't consistently played since 2016. But I still dream about being in an orchestra again. I *miss it*. So I was like. Well, what if *that* was my 4th class next semester? What If?
I looked it up. This week is the last week they're doing auditions for it. There was only one more spot free after today. And that's *tomorrow evening*.
I haven't really played my violin much in YEARS. I'm so out of practice. But apparently they don't reject anyone outright. Auditions are just for placement. So worst case scenario, I get placed in an orchestra at a lower skill level than I was at my prime. It'd still be an orchestra.
It's crazy short notice, but I don't think I'd forgive myself if I passed it up. Bc I have just one more semester before I graduate. One last opportunity to be in a school orchestra. And if I didn't do this, I'd be left with that What If forever.
So. Crazy short notice, but I have a violin audition tomorrow!!! Hahahaha
#speculation nation#im literally shaking with nerves rn but i want this so so so badly#i remember. how to play. my arms are just so much stiffer than they used to be. and my nails. man im gonna have to trim my fucking nails#at least my left hand. kinda sucks bc i like the polish i have on rn but u cant have any long nail at all for violin.#i need to play two scales of my choosing. ascending and descending in three octaves.#recommended for violin is A C or E-flat major. of course i know A and C but i'd have to look up E-flat. never did much with flats in school#then again i have that One Two Three and a Half rhythm Down. thats how id often warm myself up.#start with the base G string and just do a scale up and down (one octave). go up to the next note. do it again.#again and again until i started running out of room on the E string. & if i was Real motivated maybe id start shifting to continue.#so all id need to do is find the E flat and id be good. it all follows the same pattern.#the harder challenge will be the solo or etude. 2-3 minutes in length. only *one day* to prepare.#i have NO IDEA what id even play. i'll look in my old sheet music to see if theres anything that might work#simple enough for me to relearn on such short notice. and interesting enough to be played solo#(since i was always in orchestras it's not always the best for solo playing. tho i was also first violin section a lot#which is Basically the same as playing solo lmaooo)#if i cant find anything i do have a few sheet music books i could look in. id hate to play smth too simple#but better simple and Right than trying to do something above my current skill level.#which IRKS ME bc once upon a time i was the 4th best violinist in my high school. out of nearly 2k students.#but thats what happens when u go years without consistent practice :p ur arm gets Stiff.#im. still nervous but also thinking about the music is making me EXCITED.#it's going to be a wild time prepping for this thing but itll be over in like 5 mins and i dont even have to worry about Passing#so long as i *do it* i should get into something. i just need to push myself. do it. get out there. *play your violin*#i already cried in a public bathroom for 10 mins today and im feeling emotional Again.#not quite crying emotional tho thankfully. just. i feel like i need to climb onto a rooftop and SCREAM!!!! but like in a good way.#so so so nervous but itll be so so so worth it. i could be in an orchestra again. finally. finally finally finally.#and i STILL NEED TO FINISH THIS ASSIGNMENT.....!!!! hfkahfks today has been. a DAY.#just. keeps going through my head. i could be in an orchestra again. i could be in an orchestra again. at least one more time.
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My problem with being a teacher is that when you are a college student, you can skip the allowed amount of classes. As a college teacher, you can't do the same. You can't just say that my mental health is kinda fucked up, can't feel anything except for the existential dread and the shimmering anxiety in my stomach that tries to remind me about the deadlines, so I'm not going to school tomorrow because I wanna just stay in bed and pretend I'm not the failure I think I am. At least with my other work I can just do the bare minimum. With teaching, on the other hand...
#at least tomorrow it's a seminar so they will work on their projects#and i guess i can prepare some videos for my class on thursday as a conversation starter#because even on my good days i hate teaching master students in english because i feel so fucking inadequate#I won't be able to function on a bad day#thank fuck for the fall break#i can't wait for the next week
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#im not mentally prepared to try and date people via appssss. why can't it be the good old days where ppl meet at bars or work or smth face#to face. i hate texting SO BAD#i said I'd do it slowly and ended up with like 40 matches. girl someone yall need to not respond to me. i have 20 messages to get too#shout out to the library science masters student thats genuinely too busy to respond oooohhh myyy goddddd#straight men have too much damn time on their hands i cant do this. im not a roster girly
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Man i am so fucking tired of this orchestra
#like i guess that can be expected it's my 9th straight semester but also it really dif used to be better under the old prof#like it's basically a lab orchestra now were conducted by students more often than not#so a not insignificant amount of our time is just the prof telling the conductors shit not at all about the actual orchestra#also it used to be a string orchestra and while i do like some of the rep we've been playing it's not as much fun for the strings#which !! the winds are a bunch of music majors with other ensembles and private rep and stuff !!! but most of the strings this is it for us#and that's not even touching on the Stand Partner issues. maybe im just bitter about being demoted to 2nd AGAIN#but my stand partner is not good at orchestra etiquette so i end up doing page turns AND marking up the music#and sometimes having to explain stuff to him bc i know more and an probably better#partially my fault because i didn't practice the audition music as much as i should have I'll admit#but also we have to prepare solos for the auditions now which. i haven't taken lessons since spring of 2020 i just have olddd rep#again. we didn't do that for auditions before! it was ONLY the excerpts.#idk it's like we're simultaneously being hung out to dry and condescended to I'm just tired.
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Daily November crying sessions start today
#why. who. how. how tf does my professor think it's okay to assign 4 major assignments in the same amount of weeks + 4-6 readings every week#all of which are ~20 pages.#i've got all that to do and another big assignment for a different class. plus the weekly readings and reflections for that one.#and i have work.#i've stupidly decided to volunteer for a thing on saturday in the hopes of bulking up my resume + rubbing elbows with the administration.#and i have a medical thing on friday and i'll be looped out and likely will have to sleep half the day. probably won't get ANY work done.#what else..... some fairly easy stuff for my other class thank GOD. but a lot of reading and preparing for a few big essays.#november is the month i hate the fucking most. i always lose my mind in november. and no wonder!!!!!!#meanwhile people are bugging me to hang out. i will be in a student-coma until approx. the first week of december. see you then. peace.#oh and my BIL + SIL sitting me down and showing me all their europe honeymoon photos for 2 HOURS last night is also not helping my mood.#fuck you lol#like i'm happy for you and nice photos but also? Fuck You.#if i can offer some dark humour though.....#my fic axis exists because of a legitimate smidge of insanity i experienced last year. it shifted the way i looked at the world and at grie#sooooo i wonder what kind of fic my mind will crank out this time?#i don't think i'm at risk of losing it this year though. doesn't seem that way. but we'll see!#i can write/draw good things without sacrificing my mental health first i can write/draw good things without sacrificing my mental health f#rst i can write/draw good things without sacrificing my mental health first i can write/draw good things without sacrificing my mental heal
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I always end up exhausted after classes but also incredibly happy too. My students this cycle are so incredibly promising and nice and they all show so much interest in art. I'd gladly drop dead after class just if it means they get something out of it.
#teaching can seriously be so rewarding#if you put aside all the unpaid hours of grading and preparing classes but that's besides the point rn#plz if ur passionate about a subject you are studying let your teacher know and show that enthusiasm in your assignments#I promise any good professor won't find it weird or pretentious or overbearing#it is so rewarding to see a student show interest I SWEAR IF THEY ARE ANY GOOD THEY WILL APPRECITE YOUR INTEREST#anyway back to drawing ironstrange LMAO
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Things academics say at the end of the semester
In honour of the student who came by my office saying how lucky people working in academia are to just come to work whenever and that he's jealous of us living such a relaxed life <3
"I've got two weeks off now, but you'll still see me in the office. I'll be around. I'll probably see you tomorrow."
"Finally it's the weekend! Have you got anything planned?" - "Well, it's the weekend, not a day off, you know? I'll be writing that paper."
"I'm thinking about moving closer to university just so I can spend less time commuting and more time working. It would we so great not to have to drive for half an hour when I leave the office at 10pm. I could even go home for some dinner and then go back to the office! Can you imagine the luxury?"
"I'm in a wellness hotel with a friend right now over the weekend. Feels so good to work on my dissertation in the hotel lobby after a little trip to the sauna."
"I'm taking that terrible student's term paper home with me to read it during my vacation. Probably a good idea to only expose myself to the rage I will undoubtedly feel in smaller doses."
"I'm so glad the semester is over and I don't have to teach anymore. Now I can finally work on something that I actually get paid for!"
"I'm currently at an average of 10 hours of overtime per week, but if I take a week off now, I won't be able to finish my PhD by next year! I don't have time for a break! Maybe I'll ask for two long weekends or something. That has to be enough."
"I don't like having days off. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I keep trying to remember what I used to do for fun before the PhD, but I honestly don't know anymore. Some weekends, I have to actively stop myself from driving to the office just because I'm so freaking bored."
#none of us are okay <3#the big problem is that this is very much by design#universities are criminally underfunded. as a phd student i'm expected to work full-time while being only employed part-time#because a phd is supposed to be written in my spare time. just like i only get paid for the 2 hours of teaching per week#but not for the 6-10 hours of preparing the lesson every week let alone for grading term papers! that is officially my free time#i get about 900€ A SEMESTER for teaching. that's 28 hours teaching and about 100 hours preparing and 40 hours grading. can you imagine?#i make about 5€ an hour for teaching at university. and i'm lucky because other (german) universities don't pay you AT ALL for teaching!#so if you're a student and your lecturers are completely done with everything: this is why#most of us also lose our jobs every few years by design so that's fun#sorry for rambling but i'm so mad about all this. i like my work! i'm good at my work! at least allow me to build a life here. at least tha#ramblings#academia
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after the dismaying experience of a student at the protest the other day starting to give me a sticker than looking at me and being like oh uh wait here have this one and giving me the less confrontational liberal version instead I have to say I really appreciate the young worker at the home goods store today who I attempted to buy paint from who immediately clocked me as a dirtbag (correctly) and was like oh no you can't buy that look how much it costs?! for white paint! here's what you have to do and then told me the whole ins and outs of the paint dept and how to scam it
#I have to come back in a couple days: I did not paint my cabinet today lol#I was prepared to pay full price! I actually did know it was going to cost that much!#but it's always good to return to my roots: investing dozens of hours of labor into getting everything for no dollars#and to be reminded not to be a grown up liberal lol I mean maybe that student was right why WAS I going to pay for that??
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